am i?

am i happy with what i have now? asking myself this again and again. i guess i am, not confident at all. i'm contented with people who loves me more than before, treasure me to the core and feels most fortunate when i'm among them. however i'm so afraid that one day all these smiles creations will leave me alone again. i do really fear, someone ease these for me please.
recently i'm utterly exhausted. used too much strength and time at work, and really hope this time-span will end soon. worldcup please end come on!!! i've no time for my mom and neither my baby. worse is i don't even have time for my beauty sleep. came home ytd and mom asks me why i look so pale and GREEN -.- yeah green. i look into the mirror and says, what exactly happen to me man, i look totally different and it's killing me. lost everything that make me look bright, wth. come on i need a healthy lifestyle, let me get this all done and leave here for heaven sake. i'm sick and tired of this nightlife too. I WANT BACK MY LIFE, MY REAL LIFE THAT I CRAVES FOR!
someone guide me and gives me more strength to hold on these man.